Choices

In America everyone has the right of free choice. I am disheartened, at times, at some of the choices I make and that others I know make. I have made great efforts at changing those poor choice processes because I got tired of getting the same things I always got with those bad choices. Now, I am watching a childhood friend of mine repeating, over and over, poor choice making. I am moved to think that it has to come from a poor self image and what we think in our own minds that we deserve. It would seemingly be easy to see that the same results are coming from the same choices but, I guess, not everyone is capable or lucky enough to come to terms with their self to see that what they are doing is only hurting theirself. I feel rather lucky to be able to change the things I have because I am old enough now that I don't need all the crap in my life. You know, like the abuse, the lack of attention, being around non-productive people and do I really need to go on and on and on with negativity that is surrounded by those people? I think most people would know that is what it is. This brings me now to a big decision because I really do love my friend but her decisions to be around certain types of people tends to create the same negativity in her. It makes me not want anything to do with even her. It does suck because I would help her in a New York minute but it is always with this or that loser boyfriend and I won't have anything to do with those people anymore. I am talking about some of the laziest, non-productive, abusive people that I have had the pleasure to meet in a long time. I have no use for them. I have no desire to help them or assist them in any way. To me, they can go and do whatever it is they do but not around me, so I am left with getting a person out of my life I care deeply about. Dilemma!

Ok. I am over the dilemma.